Ho hum ho hum

I should be...

-writing a paper

-reading a LOT of school stuff

-taking a quiz

-taking a test, a really really long test

-catching up on more reading

-preparing for tomorrows meeting

but instead I am blogging :0)

Ho hum Ho hum there is always more that needs done

Fool me once....

Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me!

Do you ever have expectations for people only to be let down? I do. Not often but more than I should. I don't have expectations for everybody just a few. And it is a hard pill to swallow when they let you down.
I have often wondered if they would have let me down if I didn't have those expectations? After much thinking the answer is yes. You see we all have expectations of people even if we don't realize it. We expect mutual respect, it is just one of those things that is a given. You don't have to mention it "Oh by the way I expect you to respect me and I will respect you. Agreed?"
When your homies don't show you the mutual respect it stings.

And it may just be me but it seems to me that the people who let you down the most are the ones sucking up God's blessings. That sometimes makes me bitter. HEY LEAVE SOME FOR ME WOULD YA?
But the bible says in (my words) "Why should you care what blessing I am giving others? You should be happy for them.

So at last, you let me down big time but WWJD? God love ya- soak up those blessings! After all fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me.

INNOVATE 20008

So we are at Granger Community Church for the Innovate 2008 Conference. This church is so cool that it is ridiculous. I love it!
I was a little disappointed though because the youth info stuff was yesterday.
B U M M E R
But I did get to go to a breakout session on Growth groups and I learned a lot.
Pastor Tonya would love the kids facilities here. The have slides to get your kids where they need to go!!!! Not wimpy slides either! I wanna take a ride.
There are fun crazy posters that say fun crazy things all over the church, lots and lots of snack breaks, cool videos, neat structure, etc......
Nathan and I got up at 3:37 AM this morning to get here by 8:00 AM with Pk and Brian, I didn't go to bed until around midnight and Nate didn't get to bed until after 1:30 AM, so needless to say after very little sleep and lots of fun info today I am beat.
So beloved bloggers it is off to sleep for me so I can get up tomorrow for another fun info packed day!!!!!
Wooohooo Innovate 2008

Thank you

This is a THANK YOU to everybody that has ever served or is going to serve our country.

9-11 is a day that just may live in our lives forever, I can remember it like it was today. How sad, how simply sad.

The worst part is knowing that there is always more to the story than what "we" know.
People pop off at the mouth thinking they have it all figured out, ignorance. Ignorance is sad. People died that day, sometimes I just want to scream "SHOW SOME RESPECT AND KEEP YOUR TRAP SHUT!" but because we have people fighting for our right for freedom of speech, there is only so much we can do. It seems kind of like an oxymoron, people, good people have fought and still fight for our right to trash talk them.

I normally steer away from political and war talk. I am a born and raised Army brat and that is something that I am proud of. So I know that I tend to have a bit more passion about some of these issues than others and that is ok. If we all thought the same the world would be a boring place.

WOOOOHOOOOO

Woohooo for me! I got a promotion. I am now the Assistant Branch Manager for the Muncie South Madison Old National Bank.
Not sure when I start though because my boss has her talons in me and doesn't want to let go :0)

This process was part of the emotional week. I interviewed 3 weeks ago. They finally made an offer to me last Friday around 4:30 pm! I said "I'll let you know on Monday"

I prayed, talked to Nathan and a few other people seeking guidance, then I prayed some more. At that point I really didn't know if this was what God wanted for me. In my frequent chats with "The big guy" before I even applied, I came up with a magic number. This number was it. Well they didn't offer me my magic number. So after the weekend of chatter and prayers I countered on Monday. Now you see this is the first time I have ever experienced being in a position where it truly did not matter if I did or did not get the promotion. So I had a bit of freedom. Don't get me wrong it is a sweet deal (I think) but life would not have been over had it not worked out. I actually put it all in God's hands and did not worry about it, until Sunday night. I had a minor freak out about countering. It was brief though because I gave it back to God.

So anyway, when I countered I countered for more, thinking they would come back with a lower offer but NO THEY MET MY COUNTER!

Praise Jesus!

Fun filled weekend
Back to work, it started off ok but it quickly became overwhelming emotionally for me.

WHAM

Tomorrow is a new day...

I'm a JERK

So I love God, I believe in The Father, The Son, Jesus died on the cross, The way to the father... yada yada yada...
I dislike "Churchie people" you know the ones I'm talking about, quick to judge, say one thing then do another, gossip fools, etc....

Well I am one.

Not normally, only at work and only with one person.

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW

I am ASHAMED.

This one person just knows how to hurt people, she plays nice while she is stabbing you with a 10" blade, then when you turn to her with horror and pain on your face to ask "Why" she feigns innocents. She is quick to toot her own horn and even quicker to kick you . She doesn't do her job and she likes to stir ......poo!
It has been like this FOREVER, everybody in the company KNOWS her and they shudder at her name.
NO JOKE
I like a challenge, I normally try to rise up and understand why people do what they do.

I am sometimes too honest, I don't believe in "candy coating" things, I am not rude but when it needs to be said I normally say it. In a very polite way that can help us all start to solve the problem.

We were sitting at the break room table last January and I said ...well I said a lot of stuff very nicely and we decided together to bury the hatchet.

Alls good now RIGHT?

WRONG.

She moved on to the next victim, our entire branch is in constant turmoil when she is there and she is FULL time :0(

Well I had enough, I snipped, I snapped, I may have even been rude *oops*

Here is the trouble..... I don't feel bad about it.....I know I should but I don't....
I became the "churchie" person that makes people frown at God's house and his people, that's not what I want out of life it is just her...

Last night I was complaining about her and Nathan said "Do you love her"
WHAT?
I said "Well I don't hate her, isn't that enough?"
Nate: "Maybe God put her in your life so you could be a witness to her"
Me (exasperated): NO! He wouldn't do that to me.....SHA!

>0p YUCK WHY MEEEEEEE?

How do I start over with her A G A I N? I don't wanna... I don't I don't I don't
I feel that my bridge has been burnt and I was totally fine with that TOTALLY
I sometimes smile when I know that I "stuck it to her that day" (not literally, just not putting up with her poo that day and letting her know that I was on to her and her game) she had it coming right?!?!? Right?... No... no, no one "has it coming"

UGH.... why daddy why? Why do I let her affect me this way? I need to turn to God.

I know I know I know believe me I know

Maybe I am missing GG for a reason

So class was good tonight (Group Processing and Skills)
We had a girl join tonight that missed last week and she is a recovering Crystal Meth addict. She has an interesting story and her beliefs in God is, well interesting. So while she was talking I thought "Hum...we should talk" ...."Maybe this is the reason I am having to skip growth group on Wednesdays"
She is not a "case" I need to fix but merely a person I would like to get to know and engage in discussions about spiritual beliefs. After all if there is a Heaven then there is a Hell

Where am I headed again?

So yesterday Nate was saying that he would take the laundry to his parents house and be getting home right when I was getting home from school.
KIMBERLY "Oh hunny that is so sweet but I don't have school tomorrow night so we can do it here"
NATHAN "You don't!?"
KIMBERLY "No hun only on Tuesday's and Wednesday's" (I was thinking Come on babe it is only 2 nights a week! Keep up here, shees!)
NATHAN "Tomorrow IS Tuesday"
KIMBERLY "Oh" :0(

Today I left work to head straight to school and while I was driving I thought "Oh crap! where is my class tonight?"

Tomorrow my class is not at IVY TECH but at South Side High School so tomorrow may be a bit of a challenge come 5 :15 p.m.....

What paper is due when in what class again??????? Oh yes I can't forget must be at work early tomorrow to run the place......

Lunch date this Friday (woohooo)

Skating par`ta this weekend... I thought Sunday but Nate says Saturday...hummmm

Dinner to the Black's on Saturday time depends on skating (must find that out soon)

Can't forget...Chruch early on Sunday for KidZone...I was late last Sunday...oops!

Baby Shower coming up not this weekend but the next...hopefully...because I RSVP'd yes!

Thursday, Thursday, Thursday....why are you so elusive?

I GOT THIS... i think....maybe....

Disclaimer: Normally I am an extreme, organized, know what's going on type of person. If you find her please send her home!

My Loving Peadad!

This holiday weekend was bittersweet. We had a great time with Cobi and the Pinkerton's but this holiday weekend also marked the 1st year anniversary of the death of my dog Peadad.
He passed away in my arms as I was rushing to the vehicle to take him to the emergency vet because he was having trouble breathing. I sat in my mothers drive way holding his limp body crying "Please please don't die"

I loved him so very much. I got him my freshman year while living with my dad in Tennessee. We rescued him from death row, literally, he was just a few short hours away from the dark abyss. He was my rock, the only love I felt I had that very long year. My parents were divorced my 8th grade year so I was going through a lot. Peadad made it bearable.

When Nathan and I got together he learned to love Peadad too. When we moved in together Nathan quickly learned where Peadad's status was in our house. He was my son, our son. So after 10 brief years Peadad died. It was horrible. I still cry because I loved him so very much. Some may think I am silly but until you experience that unconditional love that an animal can provide you will never know what it feels like. So silly or not here is a slide show of just a few pictures of my beloved Peadad. Please take a moment to see them.

Good day today!

Got to hang with the Black family and their newest addition to the family! They are awesome parents and baby Braylon is so very lucky to have been born in that family.

Then on to the Pinkerton's for some sweet grill action and fun Wii time. Pink may hold an Olympic record or two in one or two events but Tonya kicked his butt in the 100 meter hurdles at one point!

Oh yeah I even rocked out to Hannah Montana and danced in the Pinkerton living room. When you play the game you have to bust a move so Hannah can dance in her tour and gain fans so you are totally awesome! I am pretty sure Nate got it on video maybe you can check out his blog for a sneak peak!

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