Saturday, April 21, 2012

That moment when you're super irritated and you know you shouldn't be but you are....

Friday, April 20, 2012

Happy Birthday My Beautiful Friend!

Man oh man my beautiful friend, I miss you like crazy. It is hard to believe that it has been 5 years 4 months since you were taken away from here. I am so happy that you are in Heaven, streets of gold, playing a harp and what not.....but I'm selfish and want you here.
Funny how things work. Just this week a dear friend confessd to me that she was in an abusive relationship. Because I'm selfish my first thought was to God "Are you freaking kidding me!?!? I don't want this, I don't want to have to be strong again, I don't. Why me?" but then I realized that becaue I had been down this horrid road with you that I am equipped to handle this situation with wisdom. So I did. Will it work? Sadly probably not. This week I have been flooded with emotions that involve you. I normally am pretty srong but you know sometimes you just need a good healthy cry. The kind that creates a lot of snot and you get the silent heaves because you are trying to be strong but your not sure why because you are home alone.
I want you to be here to remind me of all the quirks you had. What was your favorite custard: Vanilla or Lemon. I can't remember and its killing me! I think it was Lemon and you would always say it like "Lem-moan", remember when we would get it after playing put-putt in Muncie. I want to have conversations like we used to wabout stupid things like why you would leave Q-tips laying all around the house.
Nathan wrote a blog post about how you are still influencing people even after your gone. I'm writing a blogpost Bout how selfish I am because all I can think about is "What about me?" because I love you and miss you.